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6/18/2008
noone but me from URL @ 11:45 PM Meet, my mom.  HAHAHAHA!i love hugging my mom cos it makes me feel safe. i never get that feeling when i hug others. my mom bought me a small teddybear to wish me good luck for the midyears. she wanted to get me a soldier bear, but she couldn't find one; so she bought me a farm bear cos it was green in colour & she decided it was close enough to being a soldier bear, haha. my mom always leaves me random notes around the house, sends random smses to say that she loves me. & whenever im home in the mornings, she'll always wake me up saying breakfast is ready (cos she knows that that'll get me out of bed, heee). everytime my bro & i come home shouting "maaa hungryyyy", she'll ask us to shutup, but then within the hour food would come our way. my mom looks like me, hahaha. (okay that was random) but my mom. i have so much i want to tell her, so much i want to let her know & yet i dont know how. she loves me so much that it makes me hate myself for being so selfish. for making that decision that was truly yours to make. if you asked me that same question again, i'd say i'll go wherever you go. i think i cannot live without my mom. it wouldnt be.. home. but we cant turn back time, we cant make things that happened, not happen. i cant, at least. but i'll try do what i can, i really will though; i just pray it isnt too late. i was blind enough to make that decision, but not that blind to see what its done. stupid girl, stupid blindness, stupid decisions, plainjanestupidity. Whenever my mom comes home once im already asleep, she opens my room door, stares at me sleeping, closes my door ohsogently & then goes to bed. whenever i go to school i dont bother closing my door silently; i sometimes even shout for money. sarah, sarah. You know, this bothers me so much more than the casual frown i hold when i tell friends what happened; in all honesty, i wish i knew what to do. so when in lying in my bed, thoughts running through my head.
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Hello, I'm sarahJ 290491 ex-cedarian, victorian NCC- delta 07, cadet officer |
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